I feel so malicous this time. I don't want to be but hear me out concerning this dillemna.
I've been told all my life to let go of the pain. When someone wrongs you, your suppose to forgive and foregt right? So you don't hurt yourself right?
But isn't that also letting them get away with it? That sounds horribly childish, and before you answer that, hear this.
Why do people want to hurt me at every turn, and when will they get theirs?
I only ask because I've never seen it.
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As for an update on Tony and I, We are living in Albuquerque New Mexico again, as my former friend Adam turned on us, threatened us and left us in the cold. We have no money and have no choice but to work our asses off to try and get on our feet again.
I've decided to re-record the second album. Possibly re-write it as well. I need to tell Myke about this asap...But I haven't really heard from Myke anyway so whatever.
I need to go sleep. I've been sick for almost the entire past month, but i'm so frusterated, I feel so weak, so unnatractive, I may not be able to. My head is spinning with so many emotions. I just want to trust someone. I just want the clear clean childlike ability to TRUST.
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you know, i think it is the "clear clean childlike ability to trust" is what gets you where you are. after all, the only way people can be allowed to hurt you is if you let them. yeah... it sucks. but after all, we are human.
i still hold on to the concept of forgiveness. and forget...ness.... heh.
the problems comes with forgetting. besides, if they don't get what's coming to them, it's not really your problem.
it is ... rather complicated.
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